Encouraging women to be vessels of the Lords light. Even in the midst of a dark valley, He will shine His light through us as we draw from the living water

Jesus Felt it Too

Jesus Felt it Too

Ill be honest. I've been procrastinating writing this post since September. Even today I tried to push it back until tomorrow. But God said enough already. As I wrote this God started getting me more and more excited as He had me turning back and forth through pages and books in my bible, on my tippy toes. As the story unfolded I kept praying "What's next Lord. Teach me Lord. Show me Lord. Oh your story is so good Lord". This is one of the longer posts and I encourage you to get out your bible and journal. Write down how this applies to your life and let Jesus show you the love he has for you.

I've been talking a lot about the pain we feel in life. particularly in our marriages. And I want you to always remember that you are not alone. If you have ever felt guilty for asking God if you had to keep going in your situation, don't. Jesus felt it and asked it too.

A Dark Night

Abba Father, I know that anything is possible for you. Please take this cup away so I don't have to drink from it. But whatever happens, let your will be done- not mine. Mark 14:36 (VOICE) 

This dark night was the night before Jesus' crucifixion.  The night before Jesus would be torchered to the point of death in order to save us all. Yes, He knew what was going to happen, He knew why He came to this earth, but He was wrapped in flesh. Jesus still felt great pain and anguish. He felt great sorrow and pain, and He too felt overwhelmed.

Jesus is our great example. He came down low for us to feel our pain. To show us how to live and to save us all from our sins. He came to relate to us so that we may now feel His comfort when we go through hard, painful situations. Because Jesus went through them too.

Take a moment to let this really sink in. In the midst of chaos around you. In the midst of great pain you are going through. In the midst of your overwhelming situation. In the midst of wanting to give up. Let Jesus be your comfort. He knows what you are feeling. Run to Him because He knows.

  1. What are you going through right now that you need to bring to Jesus?

Take the Cup from me Lord

I have talked about how I have asked the Lord If I had to stay in my marriage before. I have asked If I had to keep going. And maybe you have asked God that too.

We could let the enemy use that to try to make us feel guilty for wanting to give up. We could let him try to accuse us of being bad wives and mothers. OR we could turn to Jesus. He asked His Father to take the cup away from Him.

The Greek word for cup is Poterion- a drinking cup, the contents of the cup; figuratively: the portion which God allots.

This figuratively way of using the word cup was common to Hebrew, Arabic, Syriac, and not unknown to Latin writers, refers to ones experience, whether joyous or adverse, divine appointments, whether favorable or unfavorable, are likened to a cup which God presents one to drink. (Thayer's Greek Lexicon)

God presents us all with a cup that we must drink from. The question is, will we drink from the cup? Will we drink from the cup of Gods Will for our lives? Or will we try to resist and avoid the cup all together?

2. Have you accepted the cup of Gods will for your life, no matter how hard it is or how much suffering you will endure? or have you turned form the cup?

What did Jesus do

If you are fighting with God about the cup He has put before you, turn to Jesus for answers. Let Him be your guide and example for what you must do.

Jesus Prayed

Jesus was 100% God and 100% man. Jesus was wrapped in flesh. And what does scripture say about flesh? It says that our flesh is weak.

My flesh and heart may fail, but God is the strength of my hear, my portion forever. Psalm 73:26

Walk by the spirit, and you will not carry out the desires of the flesh. Galatians 5:16

And Jesus knew this.He knew what temptation felt like (Matthew 4:1-11) and He warned His disciples about this.

The Spirit is indeed willing, but the flesh is weak. Mark 14:34

During the time where His soul was sorrowful, when He was in great anguish and distress, feeling greatly overwhelmed. He fell on the ground (Mark 14:35), He fell on his face (Matthew 26:39) and prayed . Jesus stayed in constant prayer and He encouraged His disciples to do the same. (Mark 14:38).

And going a little farther, he fell on the ground and prayed that, if it were possible, the hour might pass from him. Mark 14:35

The word hour in Greek is hora- an hour, a time, a season. Ones time, appointed to him in which he is to do or suffer.

Jesus was pleading with His Father BUT surrendering in order for his body to not betray his spirit.

3. Are you in a season that you don't want to be in? Have you been asking God to take you away from your situation? Are you surrendering or are you letting your flesh take over? Take a minute to reflect. journal and write a prayer of surrender to God. Use the scriptureslisted above to strengthen your prayer.


Now, all four gospels describe this night at Gethsemane. And each gospel gives us a little piece of the story.

Lets pause for a moment and look at the place where Jesus was. Gethsemane is an olive-orchard on the Mt of Olives near Jerusalem. Lets look at the Hebrew orgion which comes from gath and shemen.

gath- press & shemen-oilso Gethsemane means oil-press.

Process this

Now lets look at the oil press process. It is crushing olives with an oil press to collect the golden juice. The process requires the olives to be crushed using a crushing stone. Then they are pressed with force extracting the oil.

So the fact that Jesus was at Gethsemane was symbolic. He was under great pressure and He was really letting it sink in that He was about to the bear the weight of all sin on his shoulders.

4. Do you feel crushed and pressed? Write it down

Jesus felt it too. And during it all He prayed Gods will to be done, not his own.

Jesus Prayed for Gods Will

Like I was saying, all the gospels describe this night. In Matthew and Mark it shows us that Jesus went away, prayed and went back to his disciples. He went away a second time, prayed and went back to his disciples. He went away a third time, prayed and went back to his disciples. Lets look at his prayers during those times.

And going a little farther, he fell on his face and prayed. Matthew 26:39

First time He asked for deliverance from the situation: My Father if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as you will. Matthew 26:39 (ESV)

And again he went away and prayed saying the same words. Mark 14:39

Second time He surrendered: My Father if this can not pass unless I drink it, your will be done. Matthew 26:42 (ESV)

So, leaving them again, he went away and prayed for the third time saying the same words again. Matthew 26:44

Third time He obeyed and God was faithful: Father if you are willing remove this cup from me. Nevertheless, not my will, but yours be done. Luke 22:42 (ESV)

Every time Jesus prayed, He prayed for Gods will to be done and not his own.

Now look at Gods faithfulness in the next verse. Look at Gods faithfulness when we learn to pray His Will.

And there appeared to him an angel from heaven, strengthening him. And being in agony he prayed more earnestly, and his sweat became like great drops of blood falling down to the ground. Luke 22:43-44 (ESV)

Now, I want you to get out your bible. Flip to John 17 and read the chapter. Please do read it and then come back to the next point.

In Luke 22:43-44 did you catch how Jesus started to pray more earnestly once God had strengthened Him? Well I believe John 17 was the prayer he prayed when He started praying more earnestly. The prayer He prayed while agony engulfed him; the prayer he prayed that made sweat drip off of his body like drops of blood falling to the ground.

During this powerful prayer Jesus prayed for Himself, His disciples, and for all believers. Take a minute to stop. Let that really soak into your heart. In the midst of pain, agony and great pressure, Jesus prayed for YOU.

Jesus Felt it Too

Jesus wants to know us, the real us. He came to earth to make Gods love known to us and he sent the Holy Spirit to continue to make that love known to us (John 17:26)



There will be a time where we suffer. And like I said in past posts, we can suffer and let it break us or we can suffer and allow God to strengthen us through it. Sometimes we are crushed and pressed in order to bring forth the golden juice that is in us!

The hardest thing I have ever had to come to terms with is when I was told "Finn, this is your time to die, so someone else may be raised up. But God will not allow something to die without rebirthing something new. Something better than before."

For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Corinthians 12:10

5. Now write another prayer. Pray for Gods will in your situation. I am going to put down two verses belowand I want you to mediate on it and let it be the heart of your prayer for Gods will inyour life and situation.

The Lord your God will circumcise your heart and the heart of your descendants, to love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul, so that you may live (NIV)

God, your God, will cut away the thick calluses on your heart and your children's hearts, freeing you to love God, your God, with your whole heart and soul and live, really live.  (MSG)

Deuteronomy 30:6 (Two translations)

I'll give you a new heart, put a new spirit in you. I'll remove the stone heart from your body and replace it with a heart that's God-willed, not sell-willed.

Ezekiel 36:26 (MSG)

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