My heart overflowed
Often times when I sit down to write its with a specific message in my heart. I sit down after I have done a little prep and I write. It doesn't come easy as I write mainly because my spinning mind works against me, but it does keep me in constant reliance on God as I ask Him for wisdom and for His words to be heard alone and for Him to be glorified.
Tonight I don't have a specific message or topic on my heart. Tonight I want to sit down with you and share my rawness. To overflow what is in my heart as if you were sitting right next to me.
I do want you to know that you are not alone. you are not alone in how you feel. you are not alone in how you often think. you are not alone in how you live and often times live in pain. Whatever you are going through you are not alone.
First your heavenly Father is always with you. Even when you don't feel His presence He is still there. We must not base our relationship with Him on our emotions because they can often be so deceptive. But we base it on the truth of who God is, what His character is, and the truth of His word.
The more I sit down and seek my Father, the more I love Him. The more His character is revealed to me, the move I love Him. The more I understand who He is and what He continues to do for me, the more I love Him. And the more I love Him the more I want to seek Him and obey Him. But it all starts with me going to Him daily. Not perfectly, but daily going to Him in one way or another. Allowing His word to wash over me and transform me.
Don't copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God's will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect. Romans 12:2, NLT
Friend, my passion if for you to have a passionate relationship with your heavenly father, your heavenly husband, your heavenly brother, your heavenly mother, your heavenly friend. Whatever He is for you I desire for you to know Him and lean on Him alone. And He desires that so much.
As I've been spending time in the word, He has been revealing more things to me. When we truly love Jesus then we will obey Him. The more we understand His true love for Him the more it hurts not to keep His commands. But you must get there. Sometimes it takes being in the broken states and surrendering ALL your broken pieces to Him, laying them out and allowing Him to start putting them back together. And He will, but we must let go of the control.
Second you are not alone because there are other women who know. If you would only reach out you would start to see that what you are going through, you are not alone in. The Holy Spirit will bring women to you and you to women. Reach out first to God and then to others. I know how hard it is to reach out, I would rather isolate myself also but that is not Gods intent for us.
God has placed something in my heart that often times I still don't understand because it is the opposite of my old self. He has placed such a passion for you a passion for women like you to know who He truly is in a world that gives such a false view of God. In a world were so many false believers and teachers try to claim the power of Jesus, yet forget the love of Jesus for others. Who often forget the obedience and sacrifice of that love.
This is my commandment: Love each other in the same way I have loved you. John 15:12,NLT
I wish I could tell you my walk with God has gotten easier as I've gone in deeper, but that isn't the truth. Life still goes on and there are still hurts and pains that come with it. There are still distractions that pull at me. But there is something that is different. My comforter is with me. My Helper helps me. My advocate speaks and prays for me in the most broken times as I step back and allow Him to step in for me. He knows what to pray when I can't get a word out.
In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. Romans 8:26
I still go through many many valleys and that is one of the reasons why this blog is called valleys of light. I know some days you don't want to get out of bed. I know some days you don't want to leave your house. I know some days you are tired and weary and at the verge of a mental break down. I know some days you feel like you don't want to go on in life. Friend, I know. And God knows.
You are anointed. you are chosen and know that His anointed go through the pain and the hardships. God wants to refine you. He wants to mold you. He wants to prune you and cut off any branch that is not properly abiding in Him. He wants to produce perseverance and endurance within you. He does it all for your good. For my good. For His glory and there is always hope.
He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful. John 15:2
Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us. Romans 5:3-5
It is uncomfortable. it is painful, but it is honest. We embrace honest conversations with Him. We cry out in honest pain and need. We are humbled as we admit our true honest need for our Father.
You are His treasure, we have a treasure by knowing His word and He has placed you in a jar of clay. Sometimes that jar needs to be broken in order to be rebuilt because it has hardened. A couple weekends ago I saw a sculpture of broken jars, but they were pouring water into each other. Because the jars were broken, they were able to pour out water into the other. We must use our brokenness and allow Gods love that we receive through it pour out into others. In the midst of the valleys we can still be a light as we allow His light to guide us. Start seeking Him instead of focusing on your circumstance.
But we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us. We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed 2 Corinthians 4:7
and always remember who God is.
He is faithful, His love is unconditional, He is merciful, He is just, He is righteous, He is Holy, He is truth, He is love, He will never leave you nor forsake you. He will complete the work that He has started in you. He will not abandon you. He desires for you to abide in Him so He can abide in you forever. He is all knowing, and everlasting. He is the same yesterday, today, and forever.
Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever. Hebrews 13:8
and He is soo so so much more. please seek Him out for yourself and you will find Him when you seek Him with you whole heart. you whole heart.
The LORD is my rock, my fortress, and my savior; my God is my rock, in whom I find protection. He is my shield, the power that saves me, and my place of safety. Psalm 18:2
When we go through the valleys He is there. And on either side of the valley two peaks are surrounding you. In fact, there can not be a valley without the mountain tops. Look up to the Most High in the midst of it all, He is there surrounding you. He is covering you. You will soon come out my friend with a table waiting for you and your cup will overflow.